Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Cigarettes

It is precisely 21 weeks today since I gave up smoking. I feel a sense of pride, having smoked for more than half my adult life. I started to smoke for typically the stupidest of reasons. An insecure and ridiculously young looking teenage self meant I believed the so called friend who regularly bullied me when she said she would no longer repeatedly call me juvenile once I had both tried smoking and 'snogging'
Unsurprisingly the bullying did not stop, and I ended up with a serious nicotine addiction, marlboro reds being my drug of choice during my teens...I can still feel that initial burn in the back of my throat as I type this. What's more surprising is the pleasure that memory evokes even now, in contrast to the memory of my 14 year old self hidden away in a park, afraid of my friends, not wanting to smoke or even touch the cigarette but more afraid not to.

5 comments:

Vi vi vi vooom!!!!!!!! said...

Well done on the 21 weeks. I'm just coming up to 21 days. lol

BenefitScroungingScum said...

Thank you and well done on the 21 days! Actually I found the first three weeks or so the most difficult. Now I've just got to figure out how to break the eating habit I've developed instead...clearly I just need to orally fixate myself!

having my cake said...

Honestly, havent I told you both already! Water and wanking. Keeps the belly full and the fingers busy... You have to spend your entire life in the toilet mind... but at least you're not smoking! Well done guys x

BenefitScroungingScum said...

Honestly HMC, I already attract far too much public attention as it is...I suspect wanking whilst out having a cup of coffee might just push it over the edge...especially in my small town ;)

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